Incident:IR-202308-1: Fatality from nitrous oxide-induced hypoxia: Difference between revisions

| location = Victim's home, Northwestern USA

}}A 29-year-old victim died while playing alone at home with [[nitrous oxide]] in a semi-closed rebreathing circuit. Although they were considered to be an experienced practitioner of [[breath play]], their fail-safe system did not function as intended, resulting in the fatal event. The evidence suggests that the victim was continuously exposed to a hypoxic gas mixture from the uninterrupted flow of nitrous oxide into the circuit and [[Breath play#Loss of consciousness|lost consciousness]]. From our analysis, we believe that a subtle operational design flaw combined with the direct connection of a large supply of nitrous oxide to the breathing circuit led to death occurring before oxygen could be restored.

The fatal incident occurred in the victim’s home. The victim lived alone in a detached 1-bedroom unit. The victim’s body was found on a couch in their living space with a gas mask attached to their face, which was connected to a large nitrous oxide tank through a self-built breathing circuit. They were wearing only underwear and were lying under a comforter with their hands clasped around the nitrous oxide control valve of the breathing circuit. A vibrator was near the victim but did not appear to have been used.

* (V) - The victim. According to multiple friends, (V) was described as very experienced with kink and breath play in particular. The victim was aware of the risks of solo breath play, had experienced near-miss incidents involving nitrous and breath control, and attempted to mitigate the risks in the design of the breathing circuit used.

* (A) - Friend of (V) who lived near them and had a key to their unit.

* (B) - Friend of (V) who lived in the same area and was a regular play partner of (V).

* (C) - Friend of (V) who had discussed a near-miss incident involving (V) at an event.

Friends of (V) witnessed events and circumstances in the months leading up to the fatal incident that raised concerns about (V)’s safety relating to their practice of breath play. However, these previous incidents occurred amongst different individuals and groups of friends, so no individual had a comprehensive perspective of the escalation in the intensity and risk that (V) may have been taking.

Several months prior to the fatal incident, one friend (A) observed (V) disposing of a large trash bag full of empty whipped cream chargers (each of which contained a small amount of food-grade nitrous oxide) at their shared garbage bin. (A) confronted (V) about the quantity of use, and (V) reported they were going through a stressful time at work. After this confrontation, (A) did not witness (V) having whipped cream chargers again, speculating that (V) started disposing of them elsewhere to conceal their use, though this could not be confirmed.

Sometime after this, (V) was introduced to the availability of larger containers of nitrous oxide. (V) expressed interest in acquiring a larger tank for cost efficiency and ease of use. Reportedly, the victim was aware of the potential risks of solo breath play and knew that using nitrous oxide in a closed circuit was dangerous.

Several weeks prior to the fatal incident, the victim was the subject in a bondage and breath play scene at an event in which nitrous oxide was intermittently administered into a closed circuit. According to a friend (C) who witnessed it, people expressed to (V) their concerns about the dangers observed during the scene. However, in discussions afterwards (V) was dismissive of them.

In another instance prior to the fatal incident, (V) experienced a near-miss which they discussed with another friend (B). (V) was playing alone with a rebreather bag and nitrous oxide, lost consciousness, and awoke on the floor with the bag in their hand and no recollection of the preceding moments. Upon hearing this, (B) became concerned and advised (V) to not do breath play alone.

(V) had returned home from a work trip abroad on the day of the fatal incident. They had plans to meet with (B) in the early evening of the following day. When (B) arrived the next day, (V) did not answer their door. (B) looked inside the window of (V)’s unit and could see that (V) was on the couch and not moving. (B) contacted (A) who lived in another building on the property and had a key to (V)’s unit.

Upon entering the home, (A) and (B) found (V) laying unresponsive on the couch wearing a gas mask connected to a large cylinder of nitrous oxide with their hand clenched around a valve. The carpet around the nitrous tank was noted to be damp, presumably from condensation resulting from the complete continuous decompression of the tank. Based on (A)'s experience in emergency rescue, (V)’s temperature, signs of blood vessel collapse in the feet, they estimated that (V) died between 23:00 and 02:00 the previous evening. (A) called emergency services and officers and medical examiners arrived shortly thereafter.

Based on the circumstances in which (V) was found, it is believed that (V) died from hypoxia due to continuous flow of nitrous oxide into their breathing apparatus.

(V) was known to be very experienced and informed about the risks of breath play. They were reportedly mechanically inclined, and designed a breathing circuit (Figure 1) which they believed to be fail-safe based upon two key features:

It is assumed that (V) believed this design was fail-safe because if consciousness was lost, their hand would release the control valve, causing the flow of nitrous oxide to cease and allowing the flow of fresh oxygen through the inspiratory inlet valve of the gas mask.

Based on the evidence, (V)'s death likely resulted from this sequence of events:

# (V) held the trigger valve open to introduce nitrous oxide into the breathing circuit.

# (V) lost consciousness from hypoxia which caused their body to assume a posturing position. In this state their hand clenched and held the trigger valve open, resulting in continued flow of nitrous oxide even after they lost consciousness.

# There was enough nitrous oxide in the tank for at least several minutes of uninterrupted flow, leading to total respiratory arrest from continued brain injury. Past this point, (V)’s body ceased attempting to breathe and brain death rapidly followed.

(V) was highly experienced with kink and breath play. This likely gave (V) a sense of confidence that they understood the dangers of solo breath play and that they could design a breathing circuit which would be fail-safe. It is assumed that (V) was not aware of the posturing phenomenon, causing the incorrect assumption that if consciousness was lost their hand would release the trigger valve and restore normal air flow.

While knowledge and experience are powerful assets to facilitate the safe practice of kinks, this incident represents an example of how a false sense of confidence from incomplete knowledge can pose grave danger. When the desire to pursue increasing intensity causes escalation of risk taking behavior, the danger is tragically amplified if the knowledge of possible risks is incomplete. The editors of RACKWiki believe this incident is an important reminder to the kink community that even experienced practitioners can become victims.

There were warning signs present that (V)’s behavior relating to breath play and nitrous oxide use was escalating dangerously beyond safe practices leading up to the fatal incident. In the month leading up to their death, (V) had a distressing experience during one incident at an event, and uncontrollably lost consciousness and fell to the floor from self-asphyxiation in another. (V) described both of these experiences as negative and scary, yet neither caused (V) to change their risky behavior. Thus, even if they avoided the fatal outcome in this incident, (V) would still have been at very high risk of a fatal incident unless a holistic intervention succeeded.

This assessment does not attribute ultimate responsibility to the people around (V). No individual had a complete picture, and no individual can completely control another person’s behavior. An intervention may not have changed (V)’s behavior, but in reflecting on the incident, several of their friends wished they had tried harder.

The friends and family of (V) are still dealing with the aftermath of this incident more than a year since it happened. The family uses an alternative explanation for (V)'s passing because the facts did not align with their perception of (V). Without instructions from (V) on how they wanted their possessions disposed of, the friends had to decide on the numerous items that the family yielded to their care. Many of these are pieces of kink gear that are intimately tied to (V)'s identity, complicating decision making among their friends. More than a year later, the majority of the items have remained in storage despite friends agreeing on who would take ownership due to the emotional trauma from revisiting this painful event.